| Location | Kent |
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| Date of Birth | 07/06/2009 |
| Date of Death | 07/06/2009 |
| Visitors | 1,339 since 17/09/2009 |
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Hello. My name is Charlotte, I'm 19 and have been with my Fiance for 4 & a 1/2 years.
Wednesday 27th May, my 12 week scan. Me and my partner are Overjoyed at seeing our little baby kicking and yawning and stretching. I was 13w & 4 days. The sonographer was taking his time scanning...wasen't too worried. He then sat us outside for 20 minutes working out the combined results for downs. He called us back into the room and told us theres a 1:8 chance of our baby having down syndrome. The baby had a nasal bone present (which he said was a good sign as not many downs babies have them formed properly), it was the nuchal translucency that brought the result staggeringly high (4.4mm). We then decided to have a CVS test done on the same day. But before that, we had a heart scan done. The baby wasen't forming heart valves properly.
So we had the CVS test, went home, had to wait 4 days till they finally called the following Monday, our baby girl had down syndrome. I was so shocked, i couldn't speak. I had a strong feeling our baby was a girl so it was a bigger kick in the teeth.
We saw a consultant on Thursday and decided to go through with termination. The hardest decision we ever had to make (a decision we didn't want to have to make.) I took my first tablet that day and was asked to go into the Maternity Unit on Saturday afternoon to follow through with the next lot of tablets.
Went in Saturday, had 4 lots of tablets every 3 hours. My waters broke at 12:40 pm. I was in pain, but i embraced that pain as i felt i deserved it.Took some strong painkillers and had a shot of morphine, but it didn't take my pain away, just made me sleepy. Isla come into the world 5 hours later, born an angel. I was 15 weeks pregnant.
I decided not to hold her or look at her, as i just wanted to remember her as i saw her in the scan, happily playing in my tummy. Part of me now wishes that i did hold her for 1 last time, to say goodbye properly.But i thought it would be too traumatising.
So we then had her funeral on 24th of June. I felt strong before entering the chapel, and was ready to place a white flower on her white coffin. But as soon as the music played, and i saw her white coffin, i broke down and couldn't stop crying.
Every day that goes by, it still feels like yesterday. Every thought, every feeling, every pain, every emotion, still as raw as it can be. I have her scan pictures in a cute baby frame, next to the bed, to make sure that she is always in my dreams when i go to sleep.
We decided to send her to the heavens and give her angel wings as she would have had such a difficult life.Going into hospital as a little baby having surgery on her heart, having to put up with curious looks from strangers. I know i wouldn't of been able to cope as all i wanted was to give the best to my baby and i knew i couldn't do that.
Thank you to all the people that have been there for me during the most difficult time i've ever had to go through - it means so much to me.
Also thank you for taking the time to look at my page.
xxxx
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BIG HUGS ISLA
**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ*THOSE WE LOVE **ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ**ღ*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
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Birthday Remembrance
Thinking of you on your birthday
But that is nothing new
For no day dawns and no day ends
Without a thought of you.
We cannot send a birthday card,
Your hand we cannot touch,
But God will take our greetings
To the one we love so much.
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love you take care big hugs to you
and your family that miss you ever
day more then words can say take
care bye for now love from me
Sylvie mommy of Samantha Belanger
Happy Birthday
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ღ* Those We Love *ღ*
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BIG HUGS ISLA
⋱♰⋰ Angel Day ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ Your Angel Day in Heaven ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Many tears will fall for you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ You touched so many loving hearts ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ There’s so many missing you ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ As you now live in paradise ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Its Heaven up above stay ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Close to all your loved ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ ones For it’s you they ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ miss and love ⋱♰⋰
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⋱♰⋰ bigs hugs from me to you and your ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ family and friends that you miss you ever day ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ but in our hearts forever you will not be ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ forgoten you take care love from me ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Sylvie mommy of Samantha ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ Belanger hugs and XXXX ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ bye for now good ⋱♰⋰
⋱♰⋰ night ⋱♰⋰
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But Jesus called the children to him and said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it."
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A Birthday In Heaven - by Kris Smith
I heard you crying yesterday,
And felt your heart-sent love.
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My Birthday (way up here).
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me,
He told me with a wink.
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think).
Balloons will fill the streets for me,
They float up through the clouds.
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud.
There is a Birthday carousel,
Jewelled horses ride the wind,
With music playing, oh so sweet…
The magic never ends.
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing.
We ride our bikes and play jump rope
And sleep in Angel’s wings.
We’ll have our cake and ice cream
And open gifts - SURPRISE!
But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies.
With love from your little Angel XX
To The Child I'll Never Know - by Gloria Dianne Hall
How can I say Good Bye
When I never said Hello,
Why does my heart grieve
For the child I'll never know?
You were a part of me
For just a little while.
I grieve because I'll never see
The magic in your smile.
I grieve for all the unsaid words
That you will never say.
I grieve that I will never see
You happily at play.
I grieve for all the lullabies
That will remain unsung.
I grieve because I'll never see
Your face gleaming like the sun.
I grieve because you will never know
The comfort of my touch.
I grieve because you will never know
That you were loved so much.
I grieve for all the tomorrows
That will never be.
I grieve because God chose
To take you back from me.
You live among the Angels now
Your earthly mission done,
You will be so dearly missed
Good-Bye my little one. XX
R.I.P Isla, you were to precious for earth and taken way before your time. Sleep tight little one
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For my angel on her due date (28th November)
Poems i wrote for Isla...
My little girl, you were far too precious for this world. You are the air all around me, you are the tide coming in, you are the sun up in the sky, you are the moon lighting up the night, you are that special star outside my window, you are that comet i saw when i needed cheering up, you are the love within my heart that keeps me going, you are my life, my love, my soul, my heart, my angel, my princess, my baby and Mummy and Daddy will always miss you.
Gone too soon my little Princess, enjoy playing with the moon & stars, until Mummy & Daddy meet you again, you will always be in our hearts.
From now until i leave this earth, you have made my life what it's worth.
From now on my life without you is incomplete, i will wait for the day where we will again meet.
I will wrap you in my arms and cry, and never again will i have to say goodbye.
Forever and always, you are in my heart, that is the only way we will never be apart.
I wish you were mine to keep, but i can only hold you in my sleep.
So Goodnight sweet angel, your always with me, I wish this wasen't how it was meant to be.
My little Princess, i love you so, Please come back, and never go.
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